I can still taste you and I hate it
That wasn’t a choice in the mind of a child and you knew it
You took the first slice of me and you ate it raw
Ripped at it with your teeth and your lips like a cannibal
You fucking animal

I can still taste you and it kills me
That there’s still some sick part of it that thrills me
That my own body keeps betraying me
And there is such power there, it may destroy me
But it compels me

Of course I deny it
Can hardly believe it
Dismiss or demean it
Cause I know I can’t speak it

But when I began to tell
It became the hardest thing
I ever said out loud
The words got locked in my throat
Man, I choked
And this is what it feels like to be free
Even though it follows back down, stares
Into the dark with me

Even then I deny it
Can hardly believe it
Dismiss or demean it
But I know I must speak it

If I could forgive you now
Release you from all of the
Blame I know how
If I could forgive you now
As if saying the words
Will help me know how

To begin again

Help me know how
To begin

Help me know how
To begin again
Help me know how
To begin again
Begin again

Well how should we proceed
Without things getting too heavy
Even though I never tell you everything
I coulda sworn I dropped that bomb on you already

Grace like a river

Yeah see there will come a time
When it won’t feel just like living it over and over
With the weight of the shadow on your shoulder
And I hear there’s healing just around this corner

But it’s all behind
I’m fine it’s alright
Do I sound like I’m lying

Just giving it time
Just giving it time
But I’m still trying
Still getting used to this place

And I don’t know if I’m
Ever going to get used to this

Grace like a river
Grace like a river
Grace like a river
Grace like a river

Put on my running gear I knew that this was coming
I picked up my phone and called my favourites
I knew I had to sit you down
But sitting you down could not prepare you
For another night like this

We made a promise that we always would be honest
I never thought that I would break again
Circled Holland Park
Cold when I came back and sat you down
For yet another night like this

I wish we could play the fools again

Each word is a cut that I see coming
I clench my fists as I’m inflicting them
And now I’m running out of parts that I can play
Not the hero, not the dodger, not the preachers’ son

You ask me why I’d want to break the very thing I love the most
You knew I couldn’t answer plainly
Then you knelt down on the ground
Like you were drawing in the sand
And I surrender
I surrender now

I wish we could play the fools again
Go back or just skip to the end
I wish we could play the fools again

How could you not

On the floor we painted white
You’re picking up the pieces
Reminding me of love and what we would look like without it
It’s not a problem that is yours to fix

As this pours into your life
The street lights on and off again
Enough is enough
Is enough
Will that someday be us

I wish we could play the fools again
Go back or just skip to the end
I wish we could play the fools again
How could you not
Blame me
How could you not
Blame me

How could you not
How could you not
How could you not

Bless that medicine
For bringing round that click in your head
Better off high than dead

When you are stripped bare
When you have settled your affairs
Dressed in white
Like a bride
Or a new believer

Holding a handful of dust
What else can we trust
What else can we trust

It’s all that’s left for us

When you are back on the line
The last stillness in your mind
Almost seized me
And all of this tedious talk
It’s cheap
It’s easy

Holding a handful of dust
What else can we trust
It’s all that’s left for us
Anyway
Anyway
Oh

Yeah some hells put a peace on me
And it still feels like there are hooks in me
But the silence turns up the curse in me

Bless that medicine
For bringing round that click in your head
Better off high than dead

On my shoulder as we laid awake
And you always loved a smoke by eight
Cause baby don’t mind

Gets never colder
Than when the daylight breaks
Do you now regret the bed we made
Does it cross your mind
Well baby, does it cross your mind

I did not intend to slow you down
Even hoped that we would have spoke by now
I was acting like an only child

What takes forever is a lesson learned
I have nothing to show for the medals I’ve earned
And maybe I mind
Cause no one’s ever seen me traipsing in
I’ve been hiding from all the places I’ve been
And sore from trying
And acting like an only child

But I did not intend to slow you down
Even though I’d hoped we’d have spoke by now
Maybe we were only lying

Heaven’s closing, they’re still pouring drinks
And of all those crazy ways you think
I love you lying
But I can’t reason with the past we face
I am sorry for the mess we made
And if you want we’ll pick through my mistakes
You’ll see me crying
But maybe we could put it all behind

I did not intend to force your hand
Even though we swore we’d understand
Maybe we’ll be always trying
We’ll be always trying

Tennessee heat in a wood panelled room
I put myself into his care again
In a high school chair
For the visiting hour
From you of all people

Now he tells me to conjure you up
And so we meet again
And again at the bottom of the garden
And I’m chasing a ghost
All around the room
And now you’re strung up on the ceiling
And it’s you of all people

It’s a dangerous game
To play with fire
For a brand new mind
A dangerous game
A man on the wire
Get me out of my mind

Tied to the hope of another way through
It’s chained at my ankles, they took away my shoes
Now I see the only way through, is chained at the ankles
With you of all people

Get me out of my mind
Out of my mind
Out of my mind
Out of my mind

It’s a dangerous game
To play with fire
For a brand new mind
A dangerous game
It’s a dangerous game
With you on my side
With you in my mind
A dangerous game
A man on the wire
Get me out of my mind

Dawn hits
The sunrise on my breath
The fog lifts from pretending to forget
All the nights we left those Berwick Street hotels
To the corners where we wished each other well

It’s alright
I’m not trying to get them out of my head
It’s alright
If you don’t care then I don’t care
Is this where we
Begin again

From a stumbling mess I was searching to erase
To the hands that pull me through without trace

I no longer see faces
On the Polaroids we hid
Behind a street sign is St James’s
Where no one is forbidden

So here’s to the moment I deceive my better angels
And the foggy midnight floors of perfect strangers

It’s alright
I’m not trying to get them out of my head
It’s alright
If you don’t care then I don’t care
It’s alright
I don’t want to get them out of my head
Is this where we
Begin again

Cry havoc in the evening
Sirens in the morning
Peace by the afternoon
I was planning on leaving
Unless you really need me
I’m just trying to keep up with you

Here in my wildest dreams
We are the only ones awake
The memories stop
And you call my name
Here in my wildest dreams
Where the eyes fade away
The memories stop
And you call my name

Go in
Go in light
Go in
Go in light

I know that I’m walking a treacherous line
There’s breath on the glass
But death on the vine
Havoc in the evening
Silence in the morning
How is it so loud
When it’s quiet

Here in my wildest dreams
We are the only ones awake
The memories stop
And you call my name
Here in my wildest dreams
Where the eyes fade away
The memories stop
And you call my name

Go in
Go in light
Go in
Go in light
Go in
Go in light
Go in
Go in light
Light
Go in light

Who am I
Rambling at my reflection in the rear view light
Following a stranger, praying for a fight
Or the strength to get back on my knees again

This light
Glowing neon in the corner of my mind
Burns and burns but leaves no warmth behind
I kinda wish you’d just done it in the dark

Oh my God
We’re here again
It all slows down
To lines in the sand

Will I give out
Only that which I myself was given once
Where is all the mercy that was promised us
Perhaps we ask too much

Coulda just as well be me
Brought before them head down in that midday heat
Only defined by my most heinous deed
Well who would trace a finger through the dust

Oh my God
We’re here again
It all slows down
To lines in the sand

All we can hope
Is that we suffer well
When the cycle ends
When there’s tales to tell
When it reaches me
Let me be a stonecatcher please

Oh my God
We’re here again
It all slows down
To lines in the sand

I had wondered what was done to you
To give you such a taste for flesh
I guess for years I just carried on
Didn’t feel much of a choice to supress

I hope your memory is less vivid than mine
And is free from that awful maple light
I have to say I still wish you had just done it in the dark
So the pictures didn’t burn so bright

But I’ll forgive you now
Release you from all of the blame I know how
And I’ll forgive you now
As if saying the words will help me know how
Please help me know how

I’m afraid it will take a time
I’ll make my case to the Shahanshah as I bring him his cup
And I’ll tell him best I can what I need
To build the walls of my Jerusalem back up

And I have reckoned with what you’ve taken from me
And I killed that liar in my head
I buried him beneath the maple tree
There’s no joy in dancing with the dead

But I’ll forgive you now
Release you from all of the blame I know how
And I’ll forgive you now
As if saying the words will help me know
How